sore nostrials

nose is stuffed as i type this.

some (not all things in life) things like building relationship wif family members got to be done with lots of time. when one of them pisses you off, and you're so busy that you got no time to settle it. i think the situation is added to the collection of unreasonable, biased, irrational, judegement. but wad's to do now.

Losing control.

The projects and school work in my life seem to be controlling me. How can. That's not the way it should be. Ha, it sounds like denial eh. but nah, dun worry. it's just timmy's way of recongnising a problem.

i think sometimes, quite a lot of times, i can get realli arrogant. i realised that over the months, i've become less receptive to others concern for me. instead, i tend to interpret them as sort of a mild insult: "ha, you lousey, cannot handle things by urself." something to this effect. But of cos i know it's wrong. not everybody thinks that way. and i DON'T want to become some sorta cynical uncle sitting around the coffee shop drinking dark brown poison.

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filming today. found it enjoyable man. stef and jas realli got some wacky frens. ben could haf potential in the television or theather industry. the others also haf screenworthy fun personalities, thoroughly enjoyed it=) after that went to granny's house to eat dinner and pass out. savoured the 39.9 winks and made my way home in the comfort of the car. tmr fliming again. whew, it is pretty last min. man, i haf this rep of being he last min person. my ideal schedule has been screwed up recently by rather pointless appointments to hospital. but now, it's over=) i'm officially "discharged".

if group members or people that i supposed to haf commitment to and let ya'll down in one way or another, sorri! (kinda unsincere since i'm using 1 sorry for so many things...) sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry. haha, there, better. man, now it's significance is diluted. STOP it tim. think to much la. move on.

considering if i should focus in my remaining years in poly. hope to tok to ms kwa or some lecturers. refocusing would require accepting wasted time and money.

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isn't this blog boring. ah, things are still outta focus.